THE BENEFITS OF MEDITATION FOR CONTROL FREAKS

I am a controlling person. I am an anal-retentive Virgo. I am a hypochondriac. I am fearful of many things. I like when everything is in its place. I like when people do what I want them to do and I don’t like when people do what I don’t want them to do (or don’t do what I want them to do).

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CALLING ALL SINGLE LADIES LOOKING FOR LOVE

I write this post because when I was single, I was always looking for sound advice from those who had figured it out, and I always felt let down in some way. Either the person giving the advice had a relationship that ultimately ended. Or their advice felt very unreachable and inaccessible. I also read and personally received lots of suggestions and performed almost every suggestion I ever received, all to no avail. Finally, after a certain point, I just stopped reading articles like this because I was so frustrated and depressed about my situation, that I actually felt worse hearing hopeful hints of advice from smug relationship-y people. If you are at that point, or if you are before or after that point, this article still might be for you. I will give you the hard (but loving) truth and I hope that in this truth, you will actually find the hope you need to keep moving forward, taking deliberate and necessary action to finally end the hell of cyclical singleness.

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WHAT I LEARNED DURING MY YEAR OF BEING 40

I will be turning 41 in four days and have been reflecting back on the last year, noticing all of the changes and attempting to mentally compile a list of things I have learned. I feel like I’m coming up a bit short, but I am going to take an honest stab at this anyway.

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THE RUG: A TEACHING TOOL FOR LOVE, ACCEPTANCE, AND LETTING GO

“I am in love with what we are, not what we should be.” -Ke$ha, Animal

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I love Kesha in all her forms. I loved her when she was Ke$ha and I love her now that she’s Kesha. The first time I heard the song Animal, quoted above, these first lines of the song hit me really hard, and I remember thinking, “I wish I felt that way, but I don’t.” Continue reading THE RUG: A TEACHING TOOL FOR LOVE, ACCEPTANCE, AND LETTING GO

SURRENDER TO THE INEVITABLE EBBS OF LIFE

Right now I’m in an ebb. I can feel it. And I have to consciously surrender to it every day, because I trust in the cycle of ebb and flow, and not necessarily because it feels natural to me. Surrendering to the ebbs of life runs completely counter to American living. Americans push, and go, and move, and achieve, and accomplish, and produce. A stay-at-home mom can have just as many daily balls in the air as the CEO of a large company. If you are an American, you are most likely very active in life on a day to day basis. And if you are not, unless you are at complete peace with peace, you most likely feel an extreme sense of guilt for your lack of motivation and inactivity. Continue reading SURRENDER TO THE INEVITABLE EBBS OF LIFE

MANAGE FEAR LIKE A GODDESS

I’m frenemies with fear, and have been for my entire life.

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Every part of this definition incisively describes my lifelong relationship with fear, with the exception of describing fear as a person. Also, I would replace the word “friendly” with “familiar,” but other than that, razor sharp accuracy. Although I suppose everyone feels this way about fear. And as much as I hate to admit it, the term “friendly” in some ways is in fact accurate, because I would not be a goddess without fear as my “friend”…I just threw up in my mouth a little, but it’s true. Continue reading MANAGE FEAR LIKE A GODDESS

MIRACLES EMERGE FROM THE STILLNESS

I’m still meditating, folks. I’m in my third week now and it has not gotten any easier. If anything, it feels harder because the novelty has worn off. However, I wonder if there is something to this whole practice after all. Continue reading MIRACLES EMERGE FROM THE STILLNESS

DEATH AND MAGIC: LETTING GO OF THE OLD TO BRING IN THE NEW

I have just returned from an evening drive and feel exhilarated and open. Let me back up a bit. Continue reading DEATH AND MAGIC: LETTING GO OF THE OLD TO BRING IN THE NEW

MEDITATION: WEEK 1

Saturday, June 20, 2020  |  9:24-9:33am

I was certain that I meditated for a bit longer this morning, but it turns out I meditated for exactly nine minutes again, same as yesterday. Totally okay, good for me! The fact that I lovingly kicked my partner out of the bedroom (he was getting up anyway, so it’s okay) to meditate for a second day in a row, is something to be proud of. Continue reading MEDITATION: WEEK 1

THE GODDESS ATTAINABLE COMMITS TO MEDITATION

I have attempted meditation many times in my adult life, and I have never quite taken to it. I think I’m pretty good at not beating myself up about “doing it wrong,” and I understand there are so many different ways to meditate. As long as the meditator attempts to achieve some kind of mental clarity during the meditation session, said meditator is on the right track. Continue reading THE GODDESS ATTAINABLE COMMITS TO MEDITATION